I feel like i am looseing it HELP?

Really in a bad space only real answers please
IT STARTED WITH ME GETTING ANGRY BECAUSE HE WENT OUT WITH FRIENDS FROM WORK. I FELT LIKE **** YOU DON鈥橳 GO OUT WITH ME I WAS TIRED JUST WENT TO FAR BUT IT LIT A FIRE THAT BLEW UP IN MY FACE FROM THERE WE HAVE BEEN TOGATHER FOR 2 YEARS WE WERE ON THE PHONE FOR 3 HOURS WITH HIM TELLING ME HOW TIRED OF MY **** HE IS THAT HE IS DONE THAT HE DOESN鈥橳 THINK THIS CAN WORK HE WANTS THE GIRL HE MET I HAVE CHANGE HE WENT THROUH EVERYTHING ABOUT ME THAT HE DOESN鈥橳 LIKE SAID WE HAD NO ROMANCE AND ALL OF THIS IS ON ME ALL MY FAULT BUT KEPT GIVING ME THE DECESION OF WHAT HAPPENED NEXT I DON鈥橳 GET IT IF YOU ARE DONE THEN WHY GO ON AND ON AND GIVE HER THE CHOICE OF WHAT HAPPENS NEXT? WHAT IS UP WITH THAT I DON鈥橳 EVEN KNOW WHAT WAS HAPPENING IN THE 3 HR WE WHERE ON THE PHONE IT JUST WENT ON AND ON WITH WHAT FELT LIKE BASH ME DAY I WAS SO HURT BY THE THINGS HE HAD TO SAY I AM SO CONFUSED RIGHT NOW I JUST NEED SOME INSIGHT ON WHAT HE IS THINKING I MEAN IS HE DONE OR IS HE LIKE WAITING ON ME TO END IT IF SO WHY? WHEN WE ENDED OUR CALL HE SAID CALL ME WHEN YOU GET RIGHT OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT I don鈥檛 want to loose him I know that I don鈥檛 know what to do I told him that I wanted things to go back to the why they were he said he didn鈥檛 think I could change and if I did it would be fake how can I hate him and love him at the same time and why do I want to leave him but can鈥檛 even think of seeing him with someone else is that just me and or him scared to let go

That's alot of the problems in relationships . Everyone wants it the way it used to be . People need to realize that a relationship is supposed to grow the longer your with someone . It should never be to where you want to go backwards in time to when you first started dating . When you had those feelings that made you fall in love . In my honest opinion , i think it would be difficult for a relationship to continue to last when your at that point . You should always show one another in different ways that you love one another in more ways then when you first told each other those words . You two really need to come together and figure out where your relationship is . And is it worth continuing on . I know you don't want to lose him . But sometimes it's not worth hanging on if he doesn't feel the same . Good luck and i do hope you two work things out .

Let go of the DRAMA and move on...there is plenty fish on the sea...
I have been there...Forget it and move on

you are certainly LOOSEING your ability to spell words properly.

wow; alot to read.
don`t worrie, everything happens for a reson, or it wouldn`t happen.
eather apoligize..... wait for him to apologize..... or find mr. hotter, sweeter, better.
i hope it turns out okay, this would make a good novel.

if his abusive calling you bad names leave his ***. If not and the things he spoke of are true,then he is trying to tell you he cares,BUT can you change them? Its a two way road alway remember that. if its all about him then leave,if its a legit complaint try and work it out.

take some time out.i also off the handle with my bloke he goes out with his mates but never with me or our kids the advice i can give to you is really seriously have a good think about what went wrong,can you really fix it,and most important is it worth fixing.don't let your heart think for you always let your brain think for you

First stop talking in capitals. it sounds like you love him so why not plan ahead a day to get together but you are his equal it is not your duty to change. if he cares about you he will not ake you change. go out to dinner talk with him and see if you are really in the relationship you want. It sounds like he still wants you. it is impossible to settle this on the phone talk to him in person.

when your in a relationship that long,its either both of you have developed a strong bond that will last a lifetime or has grown up tired of carrying each others weaknesses and i think the latter has happened,and if thats the case then its better to part ways,cause the more you will try to get this relationship fixed the more both of you will get hurt,and i think your BF has just passed the ball into your court to end your relationship with him,thats why he wants you to call him about your decession,let me remind you my friend parting with someone that you've spend a lot of happy times and days is not easy to do but holding a relationship that doesnt go anywhere is more than a torture, and it will only get worse,so start looking at the brighter side of things without him, yes it will be hard but take it 1 step at a time and 1 day at a time, and dont look back to the past,start thinking about a brighter future with who knows who,just get rid of him completely thats the only way and good luck