I'm so alone that no one knows it.?

I am a junior(male) in high school.

On the surface, if you look at me or get to know me.. I'm pretty down to earth. I know I'm not weird, strange, mean or hard to get along with.. but it feels like(to me) i have a major problem.

I'm really alone. I used to be able to say I have friends.. but I'm not sure about it anymore. The friends I thought I had (i feel) have gotten bored with me and moved on.. making better or more interesting ones..

I think at the root of my problem, I have a disability to fully trust people.. which makes it difficult to make friends.

Honestly, when I walk through the halls of my school.. I feel like I'm living a half life.. like theres this space of all the things that I could be doing like meeting new people.. or dating girls..

I have wanted to change for the longest time. I know that I will do terribly in life if I don't correct this now.

I want high school memories. I want to feel like I will be remembered some what at my school.

What should i do?

stop being so hard on yourself, enjoy high school while you re there, 1 thing you need to learn nobody can make you happy or change your life but you and diff not on yahoo answers..you will be remembered for lots of things by lots of people when you return to you Reunion you are mature for your age and with that comes frustration because you are not where YOU think you should be,because you expect to much right now of yourself. how do you really know what you are suppose to do or how it will be or should be. EVERYONE is goin trough this not just you your not alone; life is very scary but you just have to keep on gettin. slow down,calm down take what you got now for what it is (learning experience,that can be corrected if needed!) if you need a definite answer go volunteer somewhere in your community and get credit for from school(fire fighting 16yrs +, 4h, life guard.ROTC, start your own thing,mentor boys and girls club) positive things that you can always be proud of. good luck

Hey we all feel like you do, Im 50 years old and i can be in a crowed building and still feel very alone. It sounds to me that you are looking for friendships that are on a deeper level. These kinds of friendships take time sweetie. The friends youve had so far were only on a superfical level. Now trust is not something you give right away it has to be earned but at the same note you have to give them and chance and not automatically distrust them. If you think this is something more serious than this do what I had to do and that was to get conseling and find out that the root of the distrust is coming from. But from what I read from you- you sound pretty normal and just trying to find your way. So lighten up and allow people to be your friend and see where it goes. Life is about taking chances and unfortunatly that opens up for people to sometimes disapoint us, but then there are the very few who turn out to be like long friends that are there when you need them to be. Those are the jewels. Good luck with your journey.

Actually you're kinda like me and my depression. Are you depressed? Just be nice and hang out with people that don't mind you. Be yourself cuz no one else can be you. Join activities and be social. Dealing with the trust issues probably the best thing to deal w/ first though...

The people that have tons of friends don't trust those 'friends' either. People that have many friends accept people as they are; they are not very selective. And they accept that they can not provide unconditional trust to anyone. Kind of like a political alliance. The dating scene actually promotes this because you just jump from person to person without really making a strong connection with anyone. If you don't change the way you view people, you will be very hurt if all doesn't go well when you start dating.

So you will have to decide if you can accept people as they are. If you can not, it may be that being alone is natural for you. For many people, being alone makes them happier and healthier than being social. Nothing wrong with that. You only feel that it is a problem because society tries to force feed a 'one life fits all' model down our throats and tries to make us feel inadequate if we go against that model.