I need to up my self esteem?

I am seriously the ugly duckling in my family. I am half phillipino and half mexican and I live with the phillipino side of my family. Since I'm half mexican I have a different genetic pool and I'm BIGGER than EVERYONE in my family. I mean, it's around average but my mom weighs less than me! She's 130 and I'm 140. Not to mention, I have the equivalent of an asian fro, I have very bad teeth, and I have keratin pilaris. I also have bad skin and horrible nails. It might not seem like much but I am the only child and my mom used to be a model before she met my dad. And since me and my mom live with my aunt (parents divorced) i live with cousins who are beautiful! What should I do? I usually just stay in my room all of the time while my cousins go out to parties and everything. Please ive me ideas on what do. I am a little chunkbutt too, 140 and 5'1. I want to feel better about myself and need some set goals to follow. I'm tired of hating myself!

i meant bigger weight size.

welcome to my world! before i turned that around [ im 16 now ]

i have ALWAYS been the ugly girl when i was younger, everyone else was so pretty & everything. then things got only worse, i started to get acne, AND acne scars. i had horrible nails, too. i bit them off down to the finger. not to mention i has these ugly dark knees & stretch marks. and as i grew up, my body just wouldn't want to look right. small boobs, huge hips, anything else you can name

BUT then, i started to accept myself. the more i kept on thinking i was ugly, the more i was going to get uglier. you are made the way you are, and your going to have to accept that. once you accept the fact that not everyone is going to look 'beautiful', you can change yourself around. & thats what i did

as i got older, i got over the fact that i am me, and i look the way i'm suppose to look. DON'T COMPARE YOURSELF TO ANYONE ELSE, thats the worst thing you can do

as i started to think of myself as beautiful, i became beautiful. i went to the doctor and got rid of my acne. i started to work out & my body became more nicer. & my boob are almost 34C! i stopped biting my nails, i got cremes for my knees & stretch marks, & now i look & feel beautiful. all you have to do is tell yourself that you are, and you will be. & there are things you can do about your appearance

this is how i look like now
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& you don't want to know how i looked like before!

believe in yourself, and you can change the way you look, & never compare yourself to anyone else, because your beautiful, but you just have to bring it out

ok make a plan talk to your mom to help you too since she was a model she has probably some pointers
loose weight
get braces
get mousterizer and creams or special doctor recomended for your keratin pilaris
get face masks/ acne creams for your skin/ face
get a manicure
go get your hair done
you will look beatufiul!!
phillipinos are naturally beatufiul so it wont be hard for you to bring out your natural beauty

Get some skin clearing that contain salyic acid. Get a toner as well try to exercise even if you are walking aroung the bock or the neighborhood. try a different hairstyle. Play with your looks in the mirror. almost every female does. Always tell yourself that you are beautiful!!

Do a 30 day make-over at glamour.com. You gotta register tho but it will make you feel soo much better! I promise! For example, for one day, it will say get a pedicure, or do a facial, get your eyebrows down, and even how to loose weight buy fitting in small activities! I do this all the time, or a month before a big event and I feel great!

your 5'1' and your taller than everyone?

im filipino and 5'1' is not that big, even for a flip.

save some money for braces, you would be surprised how a nice set of teeth can change your apperance.

word son.

lose weight will help boost your confidence.

then go to a salon and ask for good advice on what would work.