Am I a Narcissist? (NPD)?

I don't feel human..talking about NPD not "self love" so if u don't know NPD, DONT ANSWER! Im competitive, I always brag because I feel I am better at everything thing I do than anyone I have ever met..I feel like Im an actor..I pretend to care. something is wrong with me..@ work we were voting 4 best associate, I wanted 2 win, there is this kid I work with, and he gets picked on bc he dances while he works. I was in the break room and he came in, I said 'kinda seems like they singled u out doesn't it?' and he was like, "ya, I dont kno y." I was like, "they don't like it cause u r always having fun, and they think that means u cant b working" he looked so sad and said "do they expect me to be drones, like every1 else? I just want 2 b myself!" I was like "just keep being yourself. if they dont like u thats their problem. im on your side with this." he looked upset, I had done this 4 a vote, and 4 someone else 2 think of me as the savior of everything good..

I had done the same thing to hadful of ppl b4 this kid, yet 4 some reason with this kid I felt sort of bad..I think maybe bc in some ways he reminds me of myself, I dont normally feel bad 4 ppl...he told me once that he is good at pretending to b like other ppl...I made fun of him 2 ppl bc he said this, but secretly related more than anyone ever knew...idk....please let me know what u think.....

You have some symptoms of NPD. Noone can diagnose you unless you see a psychiatrist. If you have remorse, or feel for others sometimes, then you are not completely there yet. What do you think feeling human feels like?

Everyone is competitive at some level because everyone wants to do their best. If you are only competitive because you like the feeling of having others below you, then yes, you are full of yourself. It is impossible to be better than everyone at everything. What do you do when you lose? Do you reason out that you really won or does it affect your view of yourself at all?

Why do you feel the need to act out your life instead of being yourself? DO you secretly hate yourself and need to have others beneath you to feel like you mean something?

i agree that no one can really diagnois you unless you seek professional help.

It may simply be that you have really low self esteem and the reason why you act that way is because you are simply trying to make yourself feel better. I mean there is nothing wrong with being competitve, but when it starts to hurt relationships (either intimate or friendships) then regardless of whether you have NPD or not, you should probably look at changing. I mean if you cant keep a bf/gf or even jsut a friend, then there is something wrong there.

"Little info... Any personality disorder are often said to not have any cure. In a sense because they aren't realy a disease or a disorder; they are more like part of someone's personality. The treatment to these disorders revolves around more of how to "tame" the personality characteristic and in helping the individual become successful in life (socially, occupationally, etc).
This link http://www.behavenet.com/capsules/disord... tm is the actual diagnostic criteria that psychologists use. That probably falls under the info you found that you thought was too technical and hard to read.

In a summary, someone with NPD believes they are all that, that they are above everyone, and that their goals and thing should be met before anything else and even at the cost of other people" yes i do think ur narrsisist so u should see a shrink so that u can find ways to tame ur tendenise of feeling above people.