I have been diagnoses with depression today?

I was dreading going to the doctor, but I had to.

When I went into the drs room, I just broke down, I could not get my words out, I could not admit that I was depressed because I was too ashamed to.

I just feel like I have let myself down by getting depressed.

She asked me a series of questions to assess the condition and she advised me that I was very depressed.

What has triggered it off:

my fiance was diagnosed with MS in October, so he could not work

I was made redundant a week before Christmas

We have rent arrears because I am the only breadwinner, I have to work long hours to make ends meet.

The government will not help us with benefits, like working tax credits

I have signed myself from work, I just cant stop crying.

I have been contemplating suicide.

last night, I just shut myself in a dark closet for 3 hours.

How do I get out of this state of mind?

Sweetie i know exactly how you feel. A year ago i was diagnosed with OCD, mild anxiety and depression, and i found the initial aftermath the worst part. I spent months denying there was anything wrong with me during the day then at night breaking down into tears sobbing about how much i wanted to be normal and i didnt want to be sick any more and how much i hated myself for bringing this all on me. although it feels like you are powerless and life isnt worth living you have to realise its not, you have a fiance who loves you and he is suffering because of how you feel too.
I found the best thing to do first of all is set yourself little goals like every day i am going to leave the house for at least half an hour. i found being outside just going for a walk in the park can do wonders and you return felling much better.
about your finances speak to the benefits office they may be able to sort you out with carers allowance or incapacity benefit for you fiance.
Something else i discovered that helped was 5 HTP. you can buy this over the counter at holland and barrett or other health stores its a food supplament which encourages your body to increse seratonin (happy hormone) levels in the brain making you feel more possitive. paitients with depression who find taditional anti- depressant ineffective tend to use it and swear by it. it costs about 拢15 for 60 tablets or 拢25 for 120 tablets but holland and barrett are having a sale so its down to 拢6 for 60.
Chin up hun i promise even though things seem bad they will improve and if you ever need to talk just drop me an email. xxxxx

hi there, a lot of people suffer from depression so you are not alone. if i was you i would try to get in touch with support groups or a counsellor, as this will help you in the long run. Medication can help but it only covers up what really goes on and never gets to the root cause. hope this helps.

you can claim incapacity only after your ssp runs out, get in touch with a local welfare benefits advice centre

well theres nothing that can bring you down as much as a doctor telling you that you are depressed. how unhelpful. i wonder how much better you would have felt if she had told you that you were on top of the world.