Do I have Narcisstic Personality Dissorder?

don't feel human..talking about NPD not "self love" so if u don't know NPD, DONT ANSWER! Im competitive, I always brag because I feel I am better at everything thing I do than anyone I have ever met..I feel like Im an actor..I pretend to care. something is wrong with me..@ work we were voting 4 best associate, I wanted 2 win, there is this kid I work with, and he gets picked on bc he dances while he works. I was in the break room and he came in, I said 'kinda seems like they singled u out doesn't it?' and he was like, "ya, I dont kno y." I was like, "they don't like it cause u r always having fun, and they think that means u cant b working" he looked so sad and said "do they expect me to be drones, like every1 else? I just want 2 b myself!" I was like "just keep being yourself. if they dont like u thats their problem. im on your side with this." he looked upset, I had done this 4 a vote, and 4 someone else 2 think of me as the savior of everything good..

I had done the same thing to hadful of ppl b4 this kid, yet 4 some reason with this kid I felt sort of bad..I think maybe bc in some ways he reminds me of myself, I dont normally feel bad 4 ppl...he told me once that he is good at pretending to b like other ppl...I made fun of him 2 ppl bc he said this, but secretly related more than anyone ever knew...idk....please let me know what u think.....

I guess if you were to label yourself you would fit quite nicely within this group.

why do you feel the need to label yourself?

You don't sound like you want to change so what good would it do to put that label on? would it make you feel as though your actions are due to this label and you could feel better or even less guilty for your actions?

I believe that we all have personalities that suit us, just because you don't connect with people doesn't mean that you can't contribute to society, you sound as though you get up, try hard, are very honest and open about who you are and if people can't accept that well than too bad for them. As long as you are ok with yourself and don't intentionally hurt others why would you want to be anyone other than who you are?

Thats just my take...maybe you weren't sincere with the guy from work but really you told him the truth I bet no one else had the backbone to do that... I don't think that your that bad.

I don't think you have NPD but I do think that you would benefit from some couselling to find out where you are and who you are.

You do sound like a narcissist would. You might also have a dissociative disorder, in order to hide from painful emotions. You could also have some psychotic tendencies, or some autistic disorder...
It's hard to tell, but it's important you try to find out. And that is to work with a psychologist.
You do need therapy. Please find the therapist you like, and be persistent.
It would also be beneficial to you to volunteer at the homeless shelter or something.
I also recommend Tibetan Tonglen practice (google it).

Hugs...(even though you don't care about it)