Tubal on the 14th?

im having a ligation the 14th and i keep going back and forth. im really scared that if i dont do it whiile i have the insurance ill never be able to get it done and have 4 or 5 children like everyone else in my family. but then i still have high hopes for my future and want to do somthing with it.

and then im scared ill meet someone in the fututre if things dont work out with me and my bf which sometimes i dont htink it will.

i only have a coupla days and ive allready went to my pre op thing for getting blood taken.

im just getting so confused. one minute ill all for it and then the next im chickening out. i just have a phobia for surgery itself. yuou should have seen me jus tto get my wisdom teeth taken out. i about had a panic attack in the room wiating lol.

i have a tatoo on my neck and it includes 3 stars and a moon. a little dainty thing of course. and i feel as though my children are appart of that.

bah i keep going back and forth its so confusing!

mayeb it will be smarter to get it done really bc one day i could always adopt and i have this phobia about my family being ripped appart like mine has been a lot including 5 brothers and sisters..

Do you already have children? I can't really tell from your answer. Your tattoo is significant of your children you state, but is that your possible future children or your current children. How old are you?

If you are unsure of this you should wait. While some can be reversed in the future, it is still difficult to do and does not always work. Maybe an IUD would be a better option for you. It doesn't sound like you have a lot of confidence in your current relationship. For that reason, I wouldn't base your decision on that. If you are having it done because YOU don't want kids (or more kids if you already have them) in the future and you are SURE of this, then proceed on to the surgery. But if you are doing it because you don't want kids with your current BF or because HE doesn't want kids, I would find some other form of birth control.

Good luck

Wait, why don't you know the exact number of kids you have?... lol