How can I "Not" feel this way?

I am not good with people, no matter what. First off, I can not trust people. Any friend I've had in the past has either lied to me, used me, or pretended to like me, only to hurt me in the end. I wish to meet decent people, but its like i cant trust anyone anymore. Also, I hate how I talk. When i was younger, there was an incident that damaged my vocal chords, and my voice sounds different rom normal guys. because of that, i have been made fun of at every school i have been to because of it, i even stopped talking outside my home (in public, at school, etc.). I wanna express myself without being made fun of, but its happened too oten. girls have even rejected me because of how i talk. I can not trust people, and i dislike myself basically. At home, my dad blames me or everything, when something bad happens, im the blame. it's like i cant be trusted either. it's weird because im usually in my room most of the time at home.

I have very few friends, they can talk to me online, yet they wont talk to me in person. it's like my friends are embarassed of me. my one supposed best friend never calls, and i always have to call... basically, i make bad friends. I hate myself more for letting these people walk all over me. I hate who i am, i hate how im treated by people, and i cant trust anyone. how can i get over these feelings???

You have self esteem, and trust issues. Also,
you talk in negatives, for instance
"I'm not good with people", "I cannot trust", "I hate how I talk".

Can the vocal chords be repaired? Have you ever consulted a doctor on it?
If not, then you have to learn to cope with it in positive ways. When you accept your 'difference' others will too. It always works that way and most of the time we have it backward. We usually think that we need the approval of others to feel good about ourselves. It's backwards!
Most of the time, folks are uncomfortable because they're afraid they will hurt your feelings over your unusual voice so they avoid you. THEY are uncomfortable so you have to go an extra mile and own up to your difference, explain it to them, be lighhearted about your 'uniqueness' and others around you will be too.
Practice self talk. Start tracking how many times you use a negative in your speech. What you say is how you think inside. And the awful thing is that the more you say negatives, the more you feed your mind negativity. It's a self perpetuating malady/habit. Any habit can be broken but you have to replace it with something better. So everytime you say something negative about yourself, counteract it with a positive.

Your feelings are simple "reactions" to your thinking. Change your thinking first and your speech and your feelings will change even when it pertains to yourself.
Say things to yourself like, "I'm good with people", "I can be comfortable with myself so others can be", "I can make good friends because I listen to my instincts". Don't worry so much about your track record in the past. Just "be friendly" and you will have others be friendly back to you. It starts with you. It always does.
You will be surprised in just a week of doing this every day, how you are going to feel differently. Just remember everytime you say a negative through your mouth, you spood feed your mind a negative energy and set a negative pattern for yourself.

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you have to accept your self before anyone else will like you if you do not value yourself then what makes you think that anyone else should??? i honestly think that you have to be your self i have gone through some of those thing that you are going through i am not that social but when i meet someone who likes me for me i give my self up to them then i see that they arent the person who i thought they where now i try to be myself because id rather be hated for who im than loved for who im not and you should too. your problems at home i have as well my younger brother does things around the house and then i get blamed for them i also hang in my room all day and i also hide my imperfections but if you talk in public it could open doors and if someone makes fun of you try to either ignore them or tell them off. and remember someone talking behind your back only means that you are two steps ahead. get it

if you want to talk add me as a contact i am really wise and dont judge people superficially like others do (you dont have to it is just a thought)