I miss my friend. What do I do? My pride is in the way?

I met my friend in school and I miss her. We fell out because of me being me. I snapped at her and wouldn't talk to her, we were roommates and I did everything, immature or not, in my power to make her want to leave the room and she did. I soon left the school altogether. Now I find myself missing her. We did everything together, everything. I still have her e-mail address and am wondering should I e-mail her or not. I want to talk to her, but this wasn't the only time I got mad at her for something she did to the 10th power. She is very understanding and my problem was I really did not think she liked as much as she said she did. She told me I was her best friend and I was thinking "Yeah, I'm your best friend for now." because she is a beautiful girl and I am not. The last time we spoke was when a friend of hers was trying to get us to talk and she started crying saying that she didn't know why I was that way to her, that she loved me and that's okay. Then after that....

Then after that she came and told me that she's changing rooms and that next time when you get close to someone to not let something stupid break you apart.

See... that's just the type of person I am. I am a very private person and I never was really close with her, but I was?? I never spoke of personal problems with her because I knew that her mouth just went off the deep end sometimes but I cared for her... It started going down hill when she got a boy friend... we used to spend time together so when she started spending time with him I was upset, not jealous, but upset and she knew this... but I don't know. I am the type of person who always just had one GOOD friend. I didn't believe in having several.

I'm thinking of e-mailing her and just seeing what's new with her but I don't think much will become of it (if she does reply) but small talk that dwindles down to nothing.

I do miss her... she was my buddy. It will make me feel worse if she rejected me if I did try.

It sounds as though you hurt her very deeply. Definitely email her, see what's going. Even if you don't go anywhere, it'll still be a nice gesture. Maybe you should apologize and try to make up.

E-mail her. If it hurts you that much and you know that you were wrong, get back in contact with her. Don't wait until it's too late. She might still be going thru hurting too. Just let her know how you feel and how sorry you are.

If you don't try to talk to her you will regret it even more than if you do contact her and are rejected. Just let her know how you feel and that you are sorry. Let her know that you do love her and that you do want to be her friend. Tell her you are willing to work on your communicating skills, but also let her know that she needs to work on hers. Friends get into fights sometimes, especially when you live together. It takes work on both sides. But make sure that you do contact her. If you don't try, your friendship may never be healed.