I feel so different.
I'm normal, but i'm not.
Lol, I don't know what my deal is.
I have a mild form of ocd.
I think it's mild, atleast.
My mom's taken me to see if I was crazy before.. because my ocd was so weird.
I don't know if I have a mild form of shizofrenia (skitzofrenia) too or what..
I've actually never even considered that before just now, lol wow.
I will like talk to... nothing because there MIGHT, just MIGHT be something there.
That's how I think too.
I'm so confused.
And yes, I have smoked pot before.. lmfao.
I thought this way when i was like 2 though.
I have forever.
My dad passed away when I was 7.
So I dont know.....
I do believe in paranormal.
What is wrong with me?
You know that feeling when like, you have to poop.. but youre holding it in because youre in a class or something?
Well, I like that feeling... lmfaorofl.
Also, when I do poop, (excuse the crudity..lol) I dont find it gross at all to take it out, and look at it.
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I've even like, tasted it before.
I just put it on the tip of my tounge, and like bit it.. it was so gross.
Lol.!
But yeah, that's another thing that makes me think... am I crazy?
Or is that just like a mild, weird form of being turned on my poop?
I know, I thought it was weird when i first heard that too.
I think I have the perfect midnt o be a big time scientist.
I'm a scorpio, so can someone tell me if that means anything?
I'm honestly, really miniuplative.
Also, the scorpio is the sex sign.. and I used to hateeee myself for knowing what that was when i was like 5.. i wanted to die because i hated knowing that. It grossed me out soo bad.. but yet i was honestly humping my bed post because it felt good.
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If you need to know, I am 14 years old, but I look around 18.. and i dont feel 14.
5'8 1/2.
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My mom took me to the doctor guy whe n i was like 11.
But I ony went once, and he didnt get anything out of me.
I was so confused back then.. didnt even know what my ocd was.
My mom told me a while ago that she had a mild form of ocd when she was a child herself, but what she said that stuck with me was "I know what you're going through, you aren't alone"
In my heart i dont think im crazy, i think im different.
A crazy person doesnt think, or know that theyre crazy.. so that couldnt be the case.. could it?
I honestly do not think that i am crazy.. just different.
But I might be crazy.. it's undeniably secure in my mind.
I dont know who I am.
Also, I eat alotttt at night.
I used to stay up until 7 in the morning eating and watching tv, and being on the computer in my room.. but now im back on schedulle.
I dont look that fat at all.
Just a little chubby i guess you could say, but i get hit on by EVERONE i meet.
guy OR girl.. lmfao i love it.
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Also, I ued to be and still am determined to become an actress.. amous, or well known one.
I was going to mvoe to l.a. when i turn 20.
after 2 years of college.
Now that i think about it, the last 2 years of my life have been denial.
I kept telling myself that i can wait until im skinny to do any plays or anything.. and then i keep holding off on the gym, for some stupid reason.. and binge some days, and just not eat somedays.
I was convinced that I would be successful at acting, and dont need a baclup plan.
I have been told many many many times by even people who hate me that i am a very good actress, adn dont knwo how a girl my age could act like that.
I can cry on cue, very easy.. and lots of other things.
But.. now I'm starting to think it's denial.
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Oh, by the way, I AM NOT A GUY! WHAT.
THEE.
****.
Go to a psychologist dude, seriously. Ok coo-coo, you need to take some reality pills and stop trying to be such a wacko. By the length of your question/rant it appears that you require a ton of attention. You are not hopeless it just sounds like you need to grow up and stop rambling. eating your own po0p? thats kind of gross..lol you eat your poo? .......... Well, most of what you are feeling, as far as the not knowing who you are and feeling different and things, are normal at your age, especially for a girl.
OCD is manageable, for the most part, unless it is very severe. I don't know what to tell you about how bad your particular case is because you didn't say any of your mannerisms regarding that diagnosis.
Wantings to be an actress and not having a backup plan at 14 is normal. People have dreams.
Even what you were talking about, about knowing about sex and humping your bed at age 5 is perfectly normal for a 5 year old. At that stage in your life you go through the genital phase, where you are just discovering the difference between boys and girls, and you become fascinated by it. it is norm |
