Please, what does this dream mean? background knowledge included, 10 points!?

Here鈥檚 the deal, I am a female in ninth grade and I have known this girl since sixth grade, at a couple points we were best friends, she is supposedly strait, I have always been attracted to her. A lot times we would stray away from each other but then reunite. I started having dreams of us kissing in 8th grade. I am not bi or gay but there was just something about her.... My last B-day she came, my exboyfriend that have been dating off and on for the past year and her were wrestling over me jokingly, me, him and her ended up in the bathroom and she was blocking us in and looked at me and said "kiss me" I didn't think she was serious lol so I pushed her out of the way and went back in the room with the rest of my friends, they followed. Me and her ended up on the bed with others and ended up under the covers... she looking in my eyes and I began to kiss her (:It was the best kiss I have ever had:) We got back up like nothing happened but some of my friends figured. We ended up under a second time and we kissed again. After that I sat in my chair with such a happy feeling (:one I have never felt before:) Later that night my parents left and we got drunk and started making out everywhere and asked her since when did she like me she said always. That was my favorite night! My b-day was in November and since then we met up at the movies (along with our boyfriends) nothing happened鈥?we had the chance in the bathroom but nothing鈥?its not like she is to shy (in 7th and 8th grade she would always give me those 鈥渓ooks鈥?kind of like lets do it lol) we have not talked for like 2 months. I have been trying to tell myself I do not like her and such because the thought of her caused me sadness since I knew we would never be together. I keep her out of my thoughts for the most part but I am always dreaming about her. In my dreams we kiss. For example, last night I had a dream that me, her and my boyfriend were walking to my grandmas house when we had to walk in some deep thick mud when she got stuck and almost went all the way in I saved her and held her in my arms and asked if she was okay (I really really cared) we kept walking and we were stopping to eat and me and her started kissing in front of my boyfriend鈥?I had second thoughts but I did not care. We arrived to my grandma鈥檚 house and I was soo happy we kissed some but I was trying so hard not to lose her. I woke up and was so disappointed once again because it felt so real. I wish it was real鈥?(I am homeschooled now btw)

At your age, sex may not necessary enter your mind, but rather I think it is more like very extended friendship.

A friendship that feel more than lovers, but without sex, and overly emotional involved greater even than sisters, yet limited too just hugs and kisses and wanting to be of oneness.

One of my college roommate, once confided to me, that he loved me (we both males), yet he said the love he felt is greater than love of two brothers, but not like lovers. He admitted that he had one homo-sexual experience, but he said his love for me is altogether different, but he couldn't explained it either.

I think your feeling is the same or similar to my college roommate, so no need to think any more of it, otherwise confuse yourself of your own sexual orientation.

I have read that If you are attracted to someone in a dream only it is that you would like to see some of their best personality traits in you. You are striving to be a better person.

You are in denial ; but you are gay

might mean you are wanting her sexually