I'm TERRIFIED of the day when my mom dies..?

I'm 19 and my dad killed himself when i was 7. My mom raised my brother and I on her own since then. She is really my best friend. We talk every day. I'm moved out and living in a different city and whenever i go to visit her or she visits me I miss her alot when the visit's over. I'm so terrified of what it's going to be like when she dies. I don't know if I am going to be able to handle it. We're really close and I don't know what I'm going to do. When she doesn't answer the phone or call me back right away, I instantly worry that something happend. I've been that way since my dad died. What can I do to stop worrying and not let the worrying affect my life?

You probably need to talk about your dad's death and deal with that. Don't hem your mom in so much that she can't go out without informing you. Chances are that your mom will die before you and it will be tough because you will grieve losing her and not have her to talk to. Those of us who had parents we talked to that have lost them feel that way. I still talk to my mom and dad at times when I have issues. I actually can imagine what they might say to what I bring up. I do this privately and it helps me. You also will find other people you can talk to, or, at least I think you should. It does help to have people that you can talk to.

i guess you can't help worrying or control that
hope she is having a good life, that you feel she is ok when you don't reach her, get her to take care of herself, so you hopefully will have her for a long time
enjoy your mom as long as you have her, call her, write her and visit as often as you can, tell her you love her

here is a story....

A woman comes up to a very upset crying woman.

She asks "whats wrong?"

The woman replies "My child has just passed on and I don't know if I can handle it or live with out them!"

The woman then says "let me ask you, did you morn your baby before he was born?"

"No, why?" The other woman answers

"Why then morn after death, if your baby is just going back to where they were"

Well... that's a part of life most people have to go through.

It's better children bury their parents then parents bury their children.

You should speak to your mother about it, if you dont the feeling with grow more each time you visit her.

i think it happens to evrybody who has had a loved one taken from them suddenly .i am sure a lot of people wi share ur worries. what i find helpful when i imagine things like that is ask myself- everybody has to die one day, is it worth spending the time u hve tgether worrying or enjoying the relationship ?
about ur father, i think u still havent come to terms with ur fathers death either... why dont u focus on the really good times u had with ur father as a child, rather than on the memories of his suicide? it is hard, but i am sure if u r able to do it, it will make a difference in the way u see life now...

What a miserable way to live, I wish I had more than this to offer:

I have a close relative whose father died when she was six. (Murdered.) Her mother, in an effort to make her feel more secure, promised god would never take her (the mom) away as long as she (the daughter) needed her.

Flash forward: Mom is now 66, daughter is 47. Daughter lived mostly independently in her 20's, lives with mom now since, I don't know, the early 90's? Still comes to tears at the thought that she will not be able to handle her mother's death. She might be right since, barely subconsciously, she had to remain dependent to keep her mother alive.

Here's my point: Please! Get! Help!

Is it too strong in your life to go away just because you want it to? Has "willing" it away helped at all so far? Does your mother know about your worry? If not, please talk to her. She can handle it, and there's a possibility she can help you figure a way out. Otherwise, you must devote a huge percentage of your energy, time and/or money to finding the best route.