I dont know how much longer i can handle this!! please help!?

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i'm 19, and when i was 18 i moved out of my parents house (b/c it was a bad situation) and into a house w/my bf for 6 months. he lost his job and b/c my 2 jobs weren't cutting it...we had to move back in with our parents. everyday here is a rollercoaster ride. everyone here looks at me like a stranger, and my siblings call me stupid and tell me to get out. my dad is physically abusive...the last incident happening about a month ago. and both of my parents yell at me everyday for little things. they think i dont have a future, and they have told me this. i am going to college, but im not doing what they want me to do, and i didn't register as fast as they wanted me too and b/c of that they yell at me for it. they go through my bank statements to see what i have spent and raid my room. the fights are bad...its an everyday thing and i'm left in tears b4 i go to bed. i wake up EVERYDAY thinking "today is when things are gona get better", but i'm always left wrong

my bf and his family think the best thing for me is to get out. His dad actually called up local apartments to get prices for me, and has convinced my bf to stay home from the beach vacation that his family and i were going on....to save his money for us to get out. Only problem is, is that i dont have a vehicle..my parents have threatened to kick me out if i buy one w/o their permission, and say that i need to be in school for over a semester b4 i can get one.

Guys, I dont know what to do. As of today i think i have $1000 saved up. its not much at all and school starts in august. i cant handle feeling like a loser--thats all that basically everyone says here and calls me. every nice thing that i do, they just find the negative in it and i can't deal with it.

you have no idea what it feels like to have your family completely look down on you--its the lowest feeling i've ever felt.

can someone give me any suggestions on what i should do? please...i dont know what to do.

Make a priority list of things you must do, want to do, and have done.

Perhaps if you postponed school for a while (assuming you've graduated from high school) ... you can get a second job, save some extra cash ... get a scooter for transportation.

Then find a room mate in a affordable place to live.

But, make safety your primary concern..... if where you are isn't safe, leave..... relatives , friends ... just move.

Remember....you can always replace items, friends, schools, and even boy friends .... but you can't replace you!

look in the papers and find a room mate. or an effencency apartment. then tell yourself daily how special you are. you know you are making something of yourself,and thats really all that matters. once your own your own seek goverment help and even get on food stamps. every little bit helps. its not for the lazy or dissabled people. its also their to help others who are only getting by. years from now when you look at your family youll be able to hold your head high,while their still inthe same boat they were in before. good luck.

It sounds like your bfs parents are quite supportive of you.

Do they know your dad hits you?

I think if you told them you could ask if you might be able to move in with your bf and his parents until you both save up enough money to buy a place.

I was in the same situation and i dont speak to both my parents.