How long has your struggle been?

I'm not saying that I don't like who I am, but I have to pose this question...
When I was 12 I had my first sexual experience, with an older boy, a senior in high school. This was in a private boarding school, and he would sneak to my bed and either get in bed with me or take me downstairs to the basement, where we would have sex, oral because he was to big for me to handle anal.
I am much older now, and the struggle throughout my life has been extremely painful, while I would consider myself bisexual, I call it bisexual under duress...please don't get me wrong, like I said I don't dislike who I am, but I still hate him for what he did to me. I feel I would have grown up different, and not dealt with homosexual issues.

My question is this...how many of you have had to deal with a situation like this and how have you dealt with it?

Well I'm sorry that you had to go through what you've been through. People can be so cruel and selfish. . and STUPID !

When I was 11 years old, my dad's friend always came over and drank with my dad in our basement while my mom was at work. My dad was an alcoholic at that time. When his friend got drunk he'd come upstairs and hang out with my sisters & I for a bit while my dad was downstairs. I'm the oldest and 11 at that time. One time he picked me up, put me on his lap and put his hands under my shirt and touched my chest area and went down there. I was so confused and hurt. I froze and didn't do anything because I didn't know what to do. I didn't know what he was doing but I felt it was wrong and very uncomfortable. I got up and left. And he'd come more often but everytime he came over I'd lock myself in my room and cry.

Keep in mind that I've never told anyone this before. This is the first time. . Know that you are not alone. . Don't let people like that ruin your life. You're so much better than that. Be strong, focus on you and life your life. .

Good luck.

i deal with it everyday
every gay or bisexual has that struggle, unless, from the start, they have accepted who they are
you are not alone. and no offense, but thats really disgusting, a senior and a 12 year old? ew

LUCKYYYY@!!!!!!!! I'm 13 and havn't even had a DATE yet...... this isnt really a good answer is it ^o.o;^ well.. you are who you are =] you shoudnt have any "issues" or care about what you are. you love someone you love em =] doesnt matter if its a boy or a girl or w/e!!! :D no one other then god has the poiwer to judge you =] thats all I have to say =] now back to da hole of pervi-yaoi-ness-ness :D *jumps into the yaoi-filled hole* ^^ baaii

sounds to me like you were sexually assaulted, and that doesnt have much to do with sexual orientation,its ok to like men IT IS REALLY OK and guess what your ok too.take a deep breath,no one should have sex with a 12 year old , thats wrong, but your older now and still find men attractive well thats ok, if you had