NEED HELP!!!!! please!!!?

My whole life is ruined. My parents always yelling. My whole April Vacation was ruined. I get depressed so easily. I always get bullied in school. I have a small amount of friends. oh yea and today i was really looking forward for someone to sleep over and My best friend was sleeping over my other best friends house when i clearly told him i was going to call him again so he could sleep over. all my other friends arent home or dont wanna. My whole life is ruined. Im not trying to be spoiled but nothing ever goes the way i wan't. I feel like i just want to commit suicide every day of my life. what do i do?!!!???

Jason,
It really sounds like you are going through a hard time right now. The problems you are having feel really huge to you and that is okay. I don't think its your fault and I believe that there may be more going on with you by the way you are reacting to these events.

Personally feel that you may be suffering from depression which can be an imbalance of the chemicals in your brain. This is not your fault and it is a disease just as sure as Diabetes or Heart Disease.

I am concerned with you feeling like you want to commit suicide every day, and that is also a symptom of depression.

Is there an adult that you trust that you can talk to about your feelings? Would you be comfortable talking to a teacher or counselor at school?

Are your parents always yelling at you or each other? Do you think that they would be willing to take you to the doctor? Are you comfortable talking to them about how you feel.

Hun, you don't have to feel like this. I know how difficult it is to feel how you do and also feel so helpless; I've been there. I had depression from the age of 5 however was not diagnosed and treated until I was 20. I had a miserable existence for many years.

Your life is not ruined, you have hit some hurdles and speed bumps is all. It can and will get better, however you need to be the one to reach out to get the help you need. I know that it may be difficult, however I have faith that it is something you can do. You came on Yahoo Answers for a reason.

Please get some professional help, if you need to see a counselor at school and they can help you talk to your parents about options for you. I have included some links in the source area on depression. The first one is very good as it lists the different types of depression and some other great information. The one from the Mayo clinic includes information on self-help and coping as well. There is another one that has a locator on where to get help.

However, this is something that must be diagnosed by a doctor and I ask that you keep in mind that not all people will have all the symptoms of Depression listed and can still be depressed. Also a doctor can rule out any physical reasons that may be causing you to feel this way.

Hang in there and know that you are NOT alone in this. Feel free to email me anytime.

Many blessings,

Michelle

BA in Psychology
30+ years depression treatment (meds, therapy, +hospitals)
Counselor at a drop in center for mentally ill
Peer Mentor

I know the movies and tv always show school, especially high school, as the best time in a person's life, but it is not. I know it is tough right now, but remember that it won't last, that it will get better and that you have options that are healthy. If you can, tell your parents how the yelling affects you. Talk to people you trust about it, and remember that there are good things about you and about your life.

Why do you think you're whole life is ruined? Just because you're having some difficulties? It seems like you're going through a tough time but it doesn't mean that you're whole life is ruined. What are some of your reasons for comtemplating suicide? You've been brave so far, don't end your life because it means that you're letting those bullies win!!! Prove them wrong and try your best to stay strong. Rememeber, it's only temporary! it won't last forever. Maybe you can talk to a counselor?