kinda sunny afternoon
me-sister-and my mom with a baby in a carriage
they seem to keep on moving and im just taking my time, we're under the train station so there's noise...mom is really ahead of me
she stops and starts calling me to move on...somehow i go up the hill (it really reminds me of a place i know) idk why but i go into the Chinese store there i saw about three or 4 people and the chinese guy was mad, he kept mentioning his business was much more important...i cant remember i think i was about to leave but before i left i wanted to see what was going on...i saw a really beautiful little girl on the center of the floor..? or sitting down? or a carriage? (idk it was weird that part...but i went over and i smiled kinda played a bit with her, she mentioned daddy?... so after stepping away from her i dont remember myself asking anyone but someone just said what was happening.."she was left here"
i was puzzled by "left", so the point in this part is that the girl was abandoned by her father, and in that moment for some reason i got desperate not just felt bad for the little girl but i literally overdid my emotions while everyone else was staring...i ran up front to the Chinese guy since he seemed like the one with authority and told him "please, i'll take her.." he seemed so furious he didnt care about the little girl he cared about his "business"
after dealing with the guy i carried her and i told her how great i would treat her, she mentioned daddy (cant remember exact words) i think she mentioned how "daddy" said he'll be back for her, she showed sadness just that instant... during my dream i see my mom going up the hill with the baby stroller and im still very overwhelmed while being with caroline...thinking mom would say no, i pleaded her telling her i would do anything to have her home with us, that my mom wouldnt have to deal with any responsibility at all, i was still kind of tearing and sad...cant understand why i would feel like that while everyone else is calmed and feeling pitty......no one else took action...
facts about the little girl:
throughout my whole dream she never mentions mami or a mother figure or anything? the only apparent figure was her father who left her, but it seemed like he abused her too? in my dream i get the feeling that he left her because he didnt want to end up killing her (that was my thought in the dream),
on our way home my mother kind of nags about how she has to deal with a baby almost all the time and now with caroline too...she doesnt say it in a bad way, the baby in the carriage is the baby that my mother babysits in real life and he's with us for long hours, but i reassured her that i would do anything to keep caroline and to care for her...no matter what
once we're home she's really a gracious child yet her eyes to me show sadness and happiness...(on and off) at times she seemed traumatized? (quiet, overly-shy?)
while walking around the house im playfully grabbing her by the hand and talking with her, when in that moment before entering the living room, my mother tells me, she wont take her shoes off???? and after such a long time with caroline with me (a whole day or so) in that moment i see she doesnt put her left foot flat on the floor when walking...i ask whats wrong
at some point between this she says " i smell like daddy...on my feet"
(or at least thats what i understood)
i feared that maybe she was scarred,burnt..or idk something he had done to her feet...i sat her down next to me on the sofa, and my mother is sitting on another sofa aside from us, i take both her shoes and socks off carefully as mom tells me to take them off real slow(just in case anything bad is on her feet and not to cause her pain), and while looking at her feet i see a little bloody hole? on her left foot while her right foot is in perfect conditions, the hole looks like it had been big? like if it was now trying to slowly close up, and i could tell it was deep because as soon as her feet was free from the sock i could see blood trying to burst out, once again i couldnt stop being so overwhelmed throught the whole dream, i asked her with tears in my eyes...how? i already figured it was her daddy "" who had done this and somehow i got a flashback while she was telling me ( a flashback of her) she said he did it while he was "SLEEPING" (?) he had stabbed her...in the flashback i saw her lying face up towards the ceiling on the bed while he was next to her...i saw no stabbing i just imagined the place...
this is the first dream that has had me so intrigued, this one and one i had before about a death and then my cousin got killed the day after (coincidence maaybe) anyways the point it i recognize the place where i found caroline...but i know no caroline at all, the closest to that is Karla who is my younger sister (who by the way doesnt show up again in the dream when im with caroline) ?...
anyway of seeing this? im so very sorry i just woke up from it...the images are still in me...by the way this dream got me depressed makes me think about how i was going to walkaway from caroline without knowing...the only way i found out was because someone said she was abondoned...but what if i would have left (in reality lets say) what if i see one of the hundreds of kids i could see in a day and just walk away from them without knowing,asking, or without having someone tell me they are suffering in their parents care...makes me think so much...
facts: while in my house i see my father, my mom,me and caroline, and my younger sister but shes barely there though...is like she just passed by and i just saw her real quick...
also when checking her foot i recall my mother comes and we both grab her or i carry her and we starte checking her gums? her mouth on the inside as a way to see if she was cut or if any other bad things rested on her...I was afraid of asking caroline if she was raped, i felt the need of asking her had she been touched by her daddy in hurtful ways, i reflected or thought that if she ahd been raped it ws best not to mention it and better off not to make my feelings even worse (those were my thoughts during the dream, i was completely crushed by her situation)
aii this is too long i know...but any help or any way of seeing this can be helpful
but what significance does this dream have...anyone knows or sees anything...
if u think is too long or anything of that matter or just wasting ur time on answering for nothing then dont do so...simple as that Your dream indicates that you are going through some transition or experiencing some difficulties with your parents-ultimately that you are feeling abandoned or left out. The little girl in your dream is you. You are the one that is having all of the feelings that you feel the little girl had. I am not insinuating that your father has abused you but your dream indicates that he feels something is more important right now than you. Your father is represented by the Chinese store owner who says his business is more important. You are feeling this way toward your father about something right now. Your mother, who is represented by herself-is giving you some support but not as much as you would like for her to, so in your dream she alternates between helping you with the little girl and complaining about the added responsibility.
The carriage in your dream stands for the fact that you feel that your parents point of view is old fashioned and the trains and station represent you wanting to go along with the crowd.
So the interpretation for this dream is this:
You are probably going from one stage of your life to another--growing up. As you are becoming independent, you want to break away from your family and siblings to become your own person but you continue to need their support because growing up is a scary thing. Something is also happening in that you may feel that your needs are not being met by your father and that your mother is not supporting you on some issues like you wish she would.
Hope this helps. Your dream is very intriguing. I have had very long emotional dreams were I became attached to someone in my dream who was extremely real to me. When I woke up I felt such a sense of loss for them it was almost like a was greaving. You seem to be doing the same thing. It makes me wonder what your needs are right now. Maybe you are needing to be in a careing relationship and don't have the oppurtunity right now. Maybe you need to go back and explore your family relationships through therapy. Not to sound mean but It was too long, and I kind of got bored. |
